The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
Lao Tzu knew what he was talking about. A few weeks ago I started this year saying I wanted to make a change and I've been working on it step by step. Well, the last couple of weeks I've taken some pretty good baby steps, but last night I took a huge leap.
If you have read my earlier post you know about the struggles I've had with the members of my church and how my family and I fill we have been treated, and know how hard it has been to go back and face these women. Well I have to say that I have returned the last two weeks after months of being away. I guess my heart has been softened. With out going into details, some of the members have stepped up when my mom got sick. I also went in and spoke the our Bishop (Our Ecclesiastic leader) about all that has been bothering me. So I'd say this was a really huge step.
So a few things that have been on my mind and that others have said to me are, were these members set out to hurt me? No. Has my actions and attitude effected their life at all? No, they are going along not even knowing how their actions have effected me. So really the only one that has really suffered from my hurt and anger is me. So why should I allow my hurt feeling to make me miserable?
Now don't get me wrong, I'm still hurt by there actions, and it is still going to take a few more steps to totally trust them again and get over the hurt. In other words, I'm not going to just jump back into the womens group tomorrow, but maybe in a few weeks. But I'm not going to let there actions define who and what I want to be. So I will just keep working at it one step at a time.
My journey is on it's way, so unti next time, remember the journey may be long, but the reward will be worth it. Let me know your journey and the steps you take.
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